Thursday, September 27, 2007
we broke up. again, but for real. im too disappointed to say any words of sadness and hurt. all i can say is take care. and goodbye to the two years we shared together, whether happy or sad.
be strong, jolene.
2:07 AM
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Friday, March 23, 2007
everything seems to start as a cycle of nightmare. AGAIN. i was really glad to get back even thou i know somehow things will start going wrong again. but for the first 2 days, i thought maybe i wasnt right after all.. i can see that u did try to change. from the way u apologise for using vulgar, which u never did say sorry before. i was so happy to see that msg and i really appreciated it. so much that i tot maybe this time things will work out for us.. but in the end, things really went wrong. u started ya heck care attitude again. spending so much of ya time with ya friends and yet accusing me of not treasuring the time with u. i really wonder if u know wad u're talking abt.. haiz. and this time u jus went out with ya friends and ignored me. den after u've had ya fun, u came back to look for me. and when i wasnt there, u started scolding. i finally realised wad i am to u all this while. just a doll. just someone to make use of. i had enough of all these. im sick of giving in. if u dun love me, just tell me.
please make sure u yourself can do what u expect others to do.
or else u have no right to say anything.
1:08 AM
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Tuesday, March 13, 2007
we broke up. again. im feeling all the sadness and yet he's so fine. perhaps i dun even mean a thing to him. this time as usual, he didnt get me back. and im tired of doing it. i feel like such a complete fool. liking someone who dun even cherish me. i thought to myself that if he doesnt get me back, i dun mean a thing to him and its not worth me loving such a guy. and the sad thing is, tts the way it is. even thou i did so much for him.. he never once appreciated or maybe he never bothered. perhaps its really time to let go. to say goodbye my dear..
flames to dust.lovers to friends.why do all good things come to an end.
i love and hate this song.
11:55 PM
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Friday, February 16, 2007
backtracking. vdae's over but the memories are not. i realised vdae's not jus abt the flowers,choc,or romantic dinners. rather, its who u spent it with. vdae this year was kinda unusual for me. on the eve of vdae, i got a real surprise. he was supposed to be in camp but shocked me when he appeared outside my house in the middle of the night with a lighted cake and chocolates. i'll never forget that baby. thank you so much. =)
on the day itself, me and ah bui went town in the day, watched a movie den prawn fishing in the night! we didnt fish before so it was kinda interesting. but the most infuriating thing was i didnt catch any at all. he caught 3 of them while i was jus feeding them with fishcakes. :s and i kept getting laughed at by him. especially when he snubbed me by repeating wad ive said" i go the other side, got more." and i ended up with none. anyway we bbq the prawns and it was quite nice. 29 bucks for 3 prawns. haha. but it was really fun thou. :D
the prawn pond. kinda romantic.
dear trying to cook his hands.
prawn murderer.
finally can get to eat. yay!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY DEAR!
kitty looks lost.
AND I GOT A BIG HELLO KITTY BALLOON.
I LOVE IT.
=)
10:39 PM
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Sunday, December 17, 2006
i've worked for like only 3 days and its really tiring me out. but luckily tml's off day! finally have the chance to rest. the work place was not as nice as i expected. the ppl there are so wierd. but not all la. lol. zara's like e zoo. the wierd ppl are the animals and me and caiyun are the zoo keepers. that'll make us feel better. haha. good that there's some cute guys too. at least there's some eye candy when we're bored. haha. anyway im still sad over that jerk. but at least it sorta woke me up. now all i need is time.. :)
9:02 AM
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Sunday, May 07, 2006
forced to write this. R.I.P blog
2:03 AM
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
wads happening. thought i'll let that go. but its impossible. its a long time. its hard to fade away. i know im sorry. i know i am. regrets come with misery.
9:36 PM
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